So, like most Americans, I create New Year’s Resolutions for myself.  I may have even posted about them – but I’m too lazy to look in the archives for them.  And, it seems, like every year, I fail at sticking with the “program” whatever it may be.  What, you too?  Thanks for making me feel better.

You see, my resolutions actually surrounded feeling better.  Taking positive care of myself in all sorts of ways.  I won’t actually bore you with the specific line items, but I am realizing as we are almost half-way through the year, that I haven’t kept my end of the bargain.  You see, I have not only heaved myself from the wagon – multiple times – but now it seems like that damned thing has actually run me over.

I have the discipline, I think.  I have done all of the things that I want to focus on in the past, but for short periods of time, and then I revert to my original unhealthy behavior, and end up completely and utterly disappointed in myself.  I understand that is the irony of such resolutions and that I’m not the only one.

So, in the effort to completely out myself, I am going to do Cinco de Mayo, yes, the 5th of May, resolutions.  One would say that I am starting a revolution for all of the other people who failed at their original goals.  Here we go:

1. I am going to become a better child of God.  Seriously.  I really mean it.

2. I am going to really start taking better care of myself.  This does not involve jumping into the latest fad, being frustrated after 2 days, and quitting with epic proportions.

3. I am going to spend more time pushing the boys.  On the swings, that is.

4. I am going to be in the moment – no more of the “in a few – you fill in the blank here (days, weeks, months, years) I will be better with…”

5. I am going to spend more time connecting with friends on a real level instead of learning about their lives through their tweets or Facebook posts.  Sorry guys, I promise to get better.

6. I am going to spend more time blogging and less time feeling guilty when I haven’t written a post.  You know what they say, if you start doing something when you wanted to instead of feeling bad about not doing it, you would be done by now.

You see, I was told long ago, that to feel the best about ourselves and the lives we lead, all of our “engines” need to be running smoothly – spiritual, emotional, physical, and mental.  I tend to only focus on one at a time, and clearly the singular view isn’t working for me.  (Thanks for the lesson, Dad.  Wish I had started listening to you just a bit earlier.)

Keep in mind that I didn’t say that I was going to try, or I was going to focus on, but I said that I was going to.  Key difference in the mindset.  I am not giving my mind any reason to think that I can’t master all of these things.  But, on the other hand, I realize that as humans, we are never going to get it right all of the time.  It just ain’t gonna happen.

So, there you go.  My Cinco de Mayo resolutions.

Anybody with me?  It would make me feel a whole lot better if someone could post a comment here to let me know that I’m not the only one doing resolutions mid-year….